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Oh God, it’s raining
But I’m not complaining
It’s filling me up
With new life
The stars in the sky
Bring tears to my eyes
They’re lighting my way
Tonight
And I haven’t felt so alive
In years
Just for a day
On a day like today
I’ll get away from this
Constant debauchery
The wind in my hair
Makes me so aware
How good it is to live
Tonight
And I haven’t felt so alive
In years
The moon
Is shining in the sky
Reminding me
Of so many other nights
But they’re not like tonight
Oh God, it’s raining
And I’m not containing
My pleasure at being
So wet
Here on my own
All on my own
How good it feels to be alone
Tonight
And I haven’t felt so alive
In years
The moon
Is shining in the sky
Reminding me
Of so many other nights
When my eyes have been so red
I’ve been mistaken for dead
But not tonight
After watching this video with Sanjay Gupta cleaning his groceries I created a cleaning station to wipe down packages and groceries before they enter our home.
It occurred to me that we need a cleaning station for our mind as well.
My therapist recommended that I had control of the “inputs”. I can choose to watch the news, to refresh Twitter over and looking at all of the bad news one scroll at a time.
Or I can choose to focus on what the positive:
There are things that we can and cannot control. The one thing we can control is our mind and that is our entire reality.
xo,
Natalie ❤
To stay sane I began artist Ohn Mar Win’s 14 Day Drawing Challenge on Skillshare on April 1st. I came across Ohn Mar’s work in 2018 where I took one of her classes and found her so lovely: gentle, kind and a generous artist who shares all of her best secrets.
We’re taking everyday household items and drawing them, creating a plan and committing to drawing every day for 14 days.
Sometimes it takes all of my effort to sit down at the table and draw but I find when I do it, there is a joyful release, no matter what the outcome. I have the satisfaction of having created something and that somehow carries me through the day.
For a brief moment I can sit and focus on something that I love to do and those moments bring me a lot of joy.
I finally get what it means to enjoy the process and not worry about the outcome.
The class is actually a lot more in depth than I expected and it focuses not just on the drawing but the mindset. I highly recommend Ohn Mar’s classes. She is the perfect tone for these interesting times.
❤ Natalie
Life as we know it has come to a screeching halt. I am living in New York City with my family. We did not run to the Hamptons or Upstate, NY. We stayed put in New York City so as not to potentially spread anything I was working at a job that I absolutely loved with people I adored. Then the pandemic struck and my husband was deployed to care for covid-19n patients in the hospital. I had to take leave from a job in tech sales that I recently got. Suddenly I found myself a stay at home mom doing things that I abhorred: cooking, cleaning and laundry. But under the given circumstances, I found caring for my children and being a mother was different and I found joy in the very things that I thought I hated. At the end of the day I was tired, but a good tired. The saying: "The obstacle is the way" is very true in my case: My children are the very thing that help sustain me mentally and physically. It's not been very easy but at the moment I've found peace. We planted seeds a few months back and now we have a full fledged veggie and garnish garden. It's very helpful to have some greens that we can pluck and eat.Two cut scallions in water sprouting new growth on top! (I saw this on Twitter)
We have arugula. (Perhaps too much arugula). The taste of fresh arugula is potently spicy and so alive.
Cilantro! We usually use a lot of cilantro but haven't used much of it yet.
And hopefully some tomatoes. Pray for them. We also planted strawberries as well but those never came in. My husband requested some Thyme and Rosemary. I freaked out a bit because I wasn't sure what I was supposed to do with anything. I texted my cousin, Tonya in West Virginia who is very handy and wise:
We can grow some of our own food and I sewed some masks (despite some obstacles, one of them being that I don't really sew.
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I take great pleasure in knowing we can do these things, with our hands. We can create and we can cultivate our own gardens and therefore our lives. Be Well, Natalie ❤